There is work, true pero que bueno que tengamos trabajo, no? In a country with a 50% unemployment rate it is good that we have work. It took me a few times to realize that when I say how busy I am with work it can be hard for Nicaraguans to understand why I am complaining. I am just so used to having work and having employment opportunities that not having nor those options is hard for me to believe at times.

Christmas is coming closer. That makes me sad and makes me long for the family. I missed Thanksgiving this year and we didn't even do anything for it here, that was in part my doing because I didn't want to try and create some dinner that would just mock everything I enjoy about Thanksgiving. I just didn't have the energy to attempt to imitate history this year.

Christmas is getting closer and I usually open presents in New Jersey or New York with the family, but this year it will be here, and who knows what the presents will be? Spanish, new friendships, new life opportunites, new horizions and new ways of living. The isolation and loneliness that rack my nightmares are only stocking stuffers. The real fruits of being here are more and less tangible.

It has been awhile. Took a few days off, though I didn't want to, just didn't find the time to commit to writing out an entry. I've been doing a bunch of interesting things though and I'd like to take this time to tell you about them.

Dhyana has come back, which is really excellent because she is inspirational. Just walking around with her is fucking amazing. Her outlook and intelligence are explosive. She puts me to thinking and keeps me doing so. She weaves this amazing web around all of us and I am so happily tangled in it that I find myself working like a madman. Her energy and committment to the program revives my own energy and committment really helping me to move on from the darker space where I found myself for a while there.

With Dhyana's return comes a big ole slew of work. Arranging host families, getting the construction running, getting the design for the library done, making sure the students are doing well, planning all the little things that need to happen for the January program and looking to get everything running smoothly for the Spring semester as well.

I hate sweating in the cyber, can you imagine? Sweating while typing on a computer, something we just are not used to.

I've been maybe thinking about making this blog, or creating another blog that is more focused on something in particular. I don't know, be it travel or food based writing. Something that I could use to force myself to practice writing specifically about those things. Ya know? And then I could stick in the general philosophical thought now and then. That would be nice. Maybe a mixture of travel and food writing, practice, nothing fancy, just something to build some experience.

Amidst all of this work and these thoughts my relationships are kind of falling to the way side, cause I really don't have the time I'd like to work on them. To maintain them really. Its kind of sad, but also kind of challenging and inspiring to see how these relationships can work in challenging situations.

A challenge is something that I'm always up to. Guess it just depends on what it looks like when it arrives.

Angry. Busy. Frustrated. I'd like to scream real loud. Gah.

But we keep on working. Im taking self time this afternoon.