more or less, life is kind of moving by me, with me, and around me as i try to swim my own route amongst fish that are all moving in the same direction. how do you feel? do you ever suffer from a horrible existential crisis about who you are, what you are doing, why you are doing it? i do. its horrific and recurring. it makes me want to do very little outside of eating bagels and hummus or riding a bike.

do you ever wonder about things?
do you ever question what you are doing? and why you are doing it? and stop, maybe while working, and just think - what am i doing here? and why? why? am i doing it?

i ask those questions alot. and i dont have answers to them. i dont know if i want answers to those questions. but i do, a little bit, want answers to those questions. the same way i want to see the world beautiful again, the same way i want to see people free, all people, and want to see the sun rise on all of us, together.