woah

so, just say fuck it? that would be the words of advice from kathrin. I might take them. I need to talk with jenai and then nicole and just calmly see if i can work to ease some tension that exists between me and jenai

singing songs is wonderful. and boy do i ever love learning them

gah gah gah

do i even have much to say?

maybe i think it would be best to write another letter to carrie. necessary. and i wonder if she has written back. i got a letter from leora, so i wonder...i wonder quite a bit.

to begin and maintain active correspondence. swankiness.

just wasting words cause i cant seem to generate much other fantasticness right -- but wait

so dinner at johns place? or maybe just boiled vegetables? eww vomit? im sorry but thats nasty especially when the kitchen has such infinite potential for deliciousness. fuck all that whining around food. pieces of shit. so tonight we eat out and then what? who knows, but we will find out. .

hm the possibility of discovery, does somewhat perturb me but honesty is honesty and i practice infinite patience daily.

to give thoughts to final projects and money owed to letter writing and journalling and inspiring my self to sing songs. to "challenging is good" - yumiko. what i really miss is nothing.

thankfully. im going to go read write and dream.

maybe more substence next time.

whaka pow!

ai
demetrius