i should just tell her to leave me alone. because thats what i want right now, but i dont think ive got the guts to just write an email saying that.

instead ill have to beat around the bush and block her email address and just hope for the best. but doing that wouldnt solve anything. so, im going to be honest, as honest as i can and not think of the negatives about this or not label them as such and just identify the range of feelings so that i can continue on.

sick. have been so for more days than id like to remember, but ive ramped up the attack on the disease, garlic, c, e, and other vitamins along with hours of sleep and no strenous activity. along with frequent showers, hand and face washing. gah. this is annoying and challenging.

we will see what tomorrow brings

ai
demetrius