love life and lentil soup

im lost what does that mean? why did i choose those words to describe how i was feeling that day. was it becuase i was eating lentil soup? and that aside from food, love is my other addiction that occurs so infrequently that whenever the possibility of a fix is avaible i tend to jump at the offer like an urchin diving for some dropped coins on the street. who knows.


im about to leave for europe, less than 60 hours now and im already doing the nervous hand thing. the nervous mind thing the nervous thing. its odd, cause i dont get nervous prior to travel. it reallly does not happen all that often. but i guess there is a first time for everything and when i speak of enjoying new experiences that force me to think, act, react, and exist in ways i have not before - i guess this is one of those times - one of those not so obvious but still right in front of me oppurtunities to confront myself and stick to my word. i cant wait.

so to you, you, you and you. enjoy. enjoy everything put infront of you, ever. enjoy the lot you've got in life and then change it, see what it is, what it has to offer, and why and re write the code for that system, and run on alternate programming. no matter how small the change or the differences the change or difference is just that, change and difference. and change and difference promote growth promote smile promote happiness and success challenges and they encourage you to be your best and then scrap that promontory for the next availble hand hold on anything. whether the direction is different or similar change is constant and everything else is irrelevant. isnt it? it is to me, only sometimes, and that just keeps changing.

with love