indeed, the days are begining to roll together. the course begins to generate momentum finding me in its path, so along for a ride i go.

my mind over flows with issues, struggles revolving around duality and its manifestations throughout my life.

im going to write in detail later, to specify and understand the issues and binary answers i present or am presented with. hoping to find another path, or many other paths.

negative stereotypes keep cropping up. often when i am stoned, sometimes when i am not. they are simple easy solutions to often complex humans and situations. action versus thought. stuck. this duality presents itself, wall like, impeding me. cracks exist, paths grow over under and around yet my strength fails, i trip and the end is not near.

this is my dilemma, accepted. to work through it and survive without alienating anyone, causing harm, destroying relationships, or ruining current projects is the challenge. to add positive twists to all the above is my ultimate goal. if i can leave this summer after building more radical contacts, learning wonderful things, and understanding, befriending, and caring for those who confuse, annoy, and/or emulate parts of myself i despise - that would make for a summer of real growth, true change, and honest inner revolution.