gah.


barcelona. rather spectacular i think. beautiful alleyways, beautiful people, a surpisingly decent selection of vegan food - huge markets which allow me to live off mostly fruit and vegetables - yay!

the people who have arrived on the trip are fun so far - nicole is great - jen and jen are cool and the rest are as well i just realized that it would take too many extra letters to go through everyone and i am doing that in my journal via hand everynight anyway. this is just for the imaginary persons who read this. ha.

i dunno

ive been thinking too muh cabout the loneliness and the people thing and the group realtions thing being that i am going to be interacting in a group of 20 odd people for 4 months it is definately something that is on my mind quite a bit. and the winners as far as pure up physical attractiveness are jen and nicole - nicole does well on the mental as well, and this random lady from toronto shuba was freaking rocking the class inequality discussion last night which was sweet.

ive been thinking ha both paragraphs start the same about my self and why i do things and such and so on and the usaul and gosh i dont think i think im in the right frame of mind to write in this right now. so to whomever might reading this ive got to stop.

with love

gah

fuck that this is silly im so freaking torn between what i should do and the fact that i really dont like the situation i am in right with this whole travelling thing. i feel likle a booo-gee-fuck and i hate that. i do not want to be travelling around europe while people starve all across the world i dont want to be here while huge ass decisions are beign made that will affect the entire future of the world are happening in north america.

i think evasion really fucked with my head. like really fucked with my head. all i want right now is to fuckinglive and im nto so sure that this is living and i cant seem tostop judgin myself or thinkmk that others are jdugin by my jus tme and ebing.


gah there are others waiting for the computer dso im making this quick. but eyah ill type wthe whol ine upo once i write it out and gah. go read evaqsion and let it rot your brain.

with love, again.