what day is it?

tuesday?

fuck.

another full week of anticipation till school ends. man, i am just desirous of this madly.

such a crush.

~ hush hush keep it down now voices carry ~

friday i do the loud thing in front of people and i am nervous as usual. ive got to perform about 4 times, 7 minutes each, 28 minutes total roughly, i will no doubt come up short like a dwarf. but i'll hold tight, i hope.

4 in mind right now, no wait 5. 6 is tentative, and hey, there is 7. kick ass.

~ who ever you are, what ever you do, where ever you are, you dont deserve abuse ~

hm. water. bottles and bottles of it. got 45 beans in donations last night, serious fucking wieght, old liberals are good for at least one thing. i think we are around 400 or just cresting it. the show will hopefully bring in about 500, putting us at 900, and then we have to beg for another 100 from somewhere. ah the buttons. kick ass so we should come even at some point. i hope so at least. i would love to not owe the whol 205 to people who suck - those blessed gods of dna my parents.

socks are much better than shoes, i propose we wear only socks from now on.

today is fine but cold, good things ahead, i just want it to be over so bad, i pine for this shit to fucking finished and to not have to embark upon the fucking insanity that it is next fall. such bloody elation rushes through me when i think of that im bowled over by the wave of freedom which is coming. is here. almost. i see the cracks and im pulling, when i can, when its feasible, i am still afraid. i am still tied down by fiscal constraints, but soon enough, i shall be free, and joyous and overflowing with love for everyone.

i have such a crush.

jintian mike he ma de gao qu yiqi mai dongxi

wo qu ramapo daxue.

wo xueshe hanyu.

wo ai wo

wo ai dou ren

ai