so, the other day in class, meg and brit and i were talking about racism after being spurred on by federico. so, they say "racism is a problem and its systemic and overwhelming" it was at that point that i became frustrated, i mean these conversations frustrate me in general, talks about racism, globalization, sexism, and other forms of oppression. i want to talk about these things. i want to discuss and forward criticisms and action plans to fuck up oppressors, learn from the oppressed and create alternatives, i want to do those things, but so often i find that the conversations are boring circle jerks and not really worth having.

maybe they need to be had with the right people, maybe there just needs to be action and little talk, maybe there needs to be more listening by white folk and more talking by folk of color, and hell maybe there needs to be nothing. i dont know. but i want there to be something and im not sure what it is.

im young and i dont know alot of stuff, im not going to pretend like i do. not my place. but i want to move this conversation forward. but how.

maybe its a matter of searching out the dialogue, working with or just reading work from groups that are consistently actively working to destroy racism and groups are mainly people of color. i think that for me, people of color have been my best teachers. and i know that some people say and see the value in white only groups for expression and working out internalized racism, fine, sure, do that i say, but make you sure you are also working to cultivate friends, allies, and people who arent white. hanging out in all white antiracist groups is the same as hanging out in your all white suburb, sure theres no racism here, well yeah, cause there are no people of color there.

ok lunch time.