fuck the DMV

it is the perfect example of a man or a woman having power over another persons life but none over their own.

and the details dont matter - except for the fact that i went to three dmv's within the course of 4 hours and had the shitty luck of getting the same woman twice at oakland - argh - i would just like to be done with this. argh. argh. argh.

im not actually here - im lost inside the writing of shitty ten page papers analyzing different sources of media - it is not at all a fun experience. especially because i am stuck at page 5 and having toruble forging ahead. and i believe it is due tonight, at 830pm. i have this odd feeling it wont be done by then. but that is fine - i have made solid headway into it for now and feel comfortable stopping today - oh that is a novel idea - stop doing the paper and do something useful or fun or creative or something that willl further my life. taking a shit would further my life more than this paper has. the paper is marginally interesting too, its not real bad, but im sure there is at least one thing i could be doing that would be more educational than this.

and ive got cookie dough at my house that needs some love - hm - i am slowly convincing myself to stop doing work on the paper and do something else instead. hm. damn. this could be bad.

ive got send out emails to the fun committee - the BAN working group whose goal it is to run summer programs, shows, educational forums, and dance parties. oh yeah the good stuff. see, as far as activist shit goes - i can do the dirty work, the door to door, the phone calls, the money collectiong the outreach and the large mobilizations. but none of that is fun - that is all fucking hell - id rather do the organizing for parties, shows, educational book readings, cooking classes, and art projects. its more fun and enjoyable work and its just fucking not as dull as campaign work - is that selfish? yes and no. i think it depends more on my intentions. i am doing the "fun" organizing because i am too lazy to do the other work or because i am good at organizing parties and fun events? hm. i think it is a little bit of both - also - a fun committee would do alot to keep spirits high within BAN, build relationships, make our work less work, and generally make people happy.

im going to send out the emails for that - ive got some ideas for it as well. shows mostly, and the first party - my house late june - oh yeah. and im sure the rest of the committee has a bagillion better ideas than i have. great! i am overly excited about all this. rar! dance parties! kick ass.

people are beautiful

people are animals

i love beautiful animals

all of them.

its just more fun that way.

ai